Back From The Dead!

I know it's been awhile but I just want to send a message out to all my faithful bitches that I'm still alive and I'm gonna be writing soon. Like I said in a earlier blog the internet is pretty much dead for me, especially now that I'm actually busy getting laid and paid. Even though I've been busy I still had time to go to plenty of shows so expect updates from those soon. Till I finally decide to write again I just want to tell all my bitches that "DADDY LOVES YOU!!!".

The Forgotten One

Tonight I actually had a lot of fun seeing all the old faces I once knew from college. It was my friends birthday, and almost anyone that mattered from that particular year showed up. So of course I was there with my crew of peeps and went around the room actually initiating conversation with people I barely cared to even be around when I was in school with them. Now that years have gone by and I've changed in my attitude, demeanor and look, so it seems like I was no longer the social cancer I once was and now I was the guy people actually liked being around. Now that my status as a good guy was actually lifted from the weirdo I was in school I felt the need to say hi to someone I actually was not only cool with in class but also had a mutual respect and at least in my part, an attraction for also. The truth actually was that I completely dug the chick. She was one of the only girls I knew in my whole 3 year acting experience that can actually act, plus she was an awesome artist too, and a hell of a cool person. Fuck I didn't even know she was gonna be there tonight cause if I did I would have tried to look even better then I did. Either way it would have all been in vain cause she didn't even remember who I was. She remembered everyone else except me. That completely made me feel like shit. I know I may look different from my days of shaving my head and looking like a serial killer but everyone else seemed to know me right off the bat. Shit, theres so many times that I go out and actually try to have people not recognise who I am, yet fail at the process and still have them question where do they know me from; yet me as the asshole I am I play the "No I don't know you, or no I never went there card" and now I finally have someone I want to recognise me and I'm completely forgotten.It Sucks! I remember when we were in class together we did a scene that even made our teacher fucking laugh his ass off (which was kinda hard). Hell she even told me the last day of classes how great she thought I was and that she actually wrote a lot awesome stuff about me in her journal for acting class, and yet somehow I'm the forgotten one. Like I said before, If I knew she was there I would have really went all out to impress her before hand so I'm kinda glad that I didn't waste my time, but damn do I feel like shit. Usually whenever people talk to me about my college days they usually talk to me about acting class and they kinda seem to always mention some of my great scenes I was in. It just sucks that one of the scenes I remember the most from my acting days is the scene I did with her, and I guess it doesn't really mean shit to her at all. SUCKS!

"The Internet Is Dead"

A few months ago Prince declared on a U.K. paper "the Mirror" that "the Internet is dead". The truth is his statement was ridiculous since the Internet is stronger then ever and unless something drastic were to happen to the earth in the future it will most likely never leave. Be that as it may I actually kinda agree with Prince, not completely, but in a way I sorta feel like the Internet is over with me. As world relies more on the Internet I find myself walking away from it. I don't like being on my computer anymore, it's only really used for my media storage, music player, and on occasion my porn hub(just being honest). I honestly find being on the Internet a bigger waste of time now then I ever did in the past. In away I almost feel left behind by it since almost none of the things that people find important, fun, or interesting with the Internet seems like they even relate to me at all. And the obscure sites I used to go to have almost nothing of interest for me either. My dependence on checking my sites everyday for updates on news has dwindled drastically, and I care even less about what some dumb asshole has to say about what happened today on their way to work when they update their facebook. And while I'm on the subject of Facebook I would just like to say that Facebook and Twitter have killed social networking sites for me completely. I always hated social networking sites from the beginning, but I always ended up on them for some strange reason, or should I really say someone in particular. But that kinda brings me to my point that the only fun or reason I have ever had to make profiles on these sites were to keep tabs on people that I was enamored with, but now the shitty security settings(or the great security settings)have taken that away from me making my profile utterly useless since I don't give a shit about anyone of my friends and celebrities mind numbing updates. I'm tired of those sites with their glorified chat room looks and their shit head members with their dipshit internet lingo. And god damn do I hate the look of Twitter! Shit I don't even have fun anymore updating my myspace page since I know no one will ever look at it again since Facebook and Twitter killed the site. The only fun I get out of myspace now is just listening to streaming albums. My only real joy is watching fucked up sites like Efuckt and The YNC(which in all actuality is not a joy at all since it usually just upsets me with the world as it only shows humanity in its lowest forms). In a way my feeling towards it are so mundane that the only exciting thing about going on is reading my mail which I only check on my phone to begin with.

The more I'm around a computer the less I see the need for it my life.And as my internet viewing is switching more towards my phone, I find less reason then ever to care about anything internet related. That's why, if you haven't noticed, I pretty much stopped updating this site on a constant basis. Now I'm not writing less because I have nothing to say or that I'm too busy, on the contrary I actually have A lot to say and I have nothing but time in my life to do it but I just don't feel inspired enough to write about it. Personally I don't know who even reads my shit anymore but I'm giving up on the whole "I Wanna Have Sex With Your Mouth " of the month thing cause I don't want to update shit every month and I don't think anyone cares who I wanna fuck, plus I could write about who I wanna fuck whenever I feel like it and don't need month to have as an excuse to say it. And I would also like to say I'm not abandoning the whole "People Are So Stupid They Need Me To Save The World" blogs yet, I'm going to write some more of them when I feel good and ready to. Soon I'm gonna go back to my old blogs and update some of them. And I think sometime soon I will finally post my "The Bottom Of Death Valley" blog that I promised I would in my "Concerts I've been to - Part 10" a couple of years back.

Besides those "BLoGs" I've mentioned I don't see myself going crazy this year writing for this page anymore. I'm gonna keep my focus on my "Concerts I've been to" blogs since that's why I really started this site to begin with, so I could basically keep a diary of my concert experiences. Maybe I'll write about other shit too, but for now The Internet Is DEAD!